best thing i've ever read:

"I finally understood what true love meant...love meant that you care for another person's happiness more than your own, no matter how painful the choices you face might be."
— Nicholas Sparks

flashback to when we said forever and always...

you're so cliche.

i see you creeping, i can see it from the shadows.

CAN YOU SAY CREEP MUCH?!?! you make me regret giving you my number. i'm definitely not interested.

i love it how...

things always end up the way i want them to and i never have to put an effort to it. MLIG.

expect the unexpected.

everything's okay now? SURPRISE MUCH?!?! let's just act like nothing happened. pretend like we were never mad. pretend like we've been talking everyday for the past few months. how come it took so long to put everything behind us? is it cause we're that immature, or are we both just stubborn. today was great. i miss all of that.

lions!

Give me a disaster.
Give me emergency.
Stand me at the head of the crusades without a remedy.
Show me to the shipwreck.
Show me how your bones shake.
And when I'm at the end of sorrow's blade.
Show me how the heart breaks.
Be steady on your feet.
No matter the trouble you meet.
Lions make you brave.
Giants give you faith.
Death is a charade.
You don't have to feel safe to feel unafraid.
Find me at the bottom.
Looking at the vultures.
Standing in the heart of disease.
Following the hard curves.
I'm looking for the thunder.
I'm looking for the blackness.
I'm learning how to getup off my knees.
And all it takes is practice.

when you're gone, will i lose control?

i hate how much i use to depend on you. i hate it how we no longer talk. i hate how we blame each other for messing up. i hate it how we both pretend nothing happened. i hate how neither of us take anything seriously. you make me hate you.

see right through you like your bathin' in windex.

i love it when people pretend to be something they're not. especially when it's obvious and things start to get awkward. i love it even more when someone points out their lies and they get all embarrassed. if you're gunna lie, atleast try and be good at it. silly, people.

sometimes, things start off great and end up like shit

i look back just a few months ago and i see how completely different everything is. how everyone got along and now they don't even associate with each other. how we use to hangout everyday then in a matter of minutes everything came crashing down because of a stupid decision. it just shows how much you need to appreciate what you have when you have it. it shows how much you miss something once its gone. and it most definitely shows how everything can go wrong just when you thought you had everything planned out.

yet another great day!

went the auburn mall today, saw marta at forever 21. my buddy thanh who works there let me go on a spree and i paid like 15 for a whole bunch of stuff. oh yea, there was a creeper who asked me and my cousin to go to springfield with him. sketchy much? best weekend ever.

OPERATION S.O.J.L. is in full effect.

I totally beasted in band! 100%, i didn't even know mrs. smith gave those out! im totally shitting on your life. todays such a great day, i got my braces off too!

randommm.

here's 25 random facts about me:
1. the only reason I'm doing this is because i don't wanna do my AP euro work.
2. I'm wickked behind in AP.
3. i usually procrastinate at everything and eat, listen to music, or nap instead. which ends up coming around and biting me in the ass.
4. i don't know where i wanna head towards in life, and i think people who already have everything planned out are extremely weird. i cant even decide what i want to wear in the morning.
5. i have an extremely short attention span. if you have to say something that takes more than 2 minutes, i probably won't be listening.
6. i've always wanted to become a vegetarian, but i've never had the guts to give up meat. but its definitely something I'll try to pursue later in life.
7. me and my brother actually get along. i don't understand how people always complain about how they always fight with their siblings.
8. i absolutely hate school. i cannot stand the people there, and the pointless busy work that comes along with it.
9. i sing and dance while in the car and i think its hilarious when people stare at me like i'm crazy.
10. i have the biggest fear of snakes. even the mention of the word snake makes me wanna cry.
11. i am very obsessive compulsive about many things, including the hooks on pens, the number of pillow and placement of pillows on a bed, food not touching, and lots of other things.
12. i am never purposely mean to anyone, unless i don't like them. when i don't like a person i make it pretty obvious.
13. i am completely infatuated with animal prints.
14. if i fall asleep with socks on, i end up kicking them off. there's a whole bunch of socks under my covers and under my bed.
15. i love love love reality shows.
16. i think UFC is absolutely hilarious.
17. i never give out or believe in second chances. if you fuck up, you're dead to me.
18. i CANNOT stand ed hardy. i think its disgusting, seriously go and get the tattoo, it'll cost less.
19. i am actually smarter than people think i am. i just have a lot of moments where i am out of it.
20. my parents let my brother name me, and of course like every other 4 year old of the 90's he was a fan of the power rangers, and i was named after the pink one.
21. i love love love the color purple.
22. i find the tyra show very informative and i actually have it tivo-ed, then again every show i like is tivo-ed.
23. i have the tendency to swear a lot. but I've been told i make it sound cute.
24. pepperoni hot pockets are my life.
25. i spend a lot on purses and wallets, but don't spend that much on clothes, except NORTH FACE.

p.s.- i gave up on doing AP work while doing this.

:)

todaay was great.
2 days till i get my braces off nigguh!

gaygaygay.

i fuckking hate people who always have to have everything revolve around them. friday was bullshit. waay to fuckking get jealous. your time to shine was LAST week. dumb bitch.

i owe you one.

"Chaos all around
Explosions and fire
You took me off the ground
And lifted me higher.
When trouble knew my name
That was before you
Now I'll never be the same
Now that I know you.
For the love you bring
Owe you everything
For the breath you give
You're my cause to live
For the love you bring
Owe you everything
For the breath you give
You're my cause to live,
For everything under the sun
I owe you one."
-Lights

Best song ever.
I'm in desperate needs of a G.B.F.
If only D.fuckkingC. was gay.

ugh.

i hate my house.
i miss my brother.
i wish i could just leave.

gross.

im back to school. its okay i guess. none of the teachers seem like dickheads except smith. ahahah. what bothers me the most is that almost everyone is wearing ed hardy. like are you kidding me. that stuff is gross. why would you want a tattoo of some random animal and some random tattoo artist's name plastered across your chest. can we say, TACKY. and plus ed hardy is waaaay overpriced. 100+ for a t-shirt? PUH-LEESE! you can probably actually GET the tattoo for less. i also cannot stand the weird tye-dye shirts people are wearing. like seriously you look like you just got bleach thrown on you. grossgrossgross. people are DUMBSHITTS!

heyheyhey!

this is my first ever video blog. they are funfunfun!

whyy must people overreact to everything!

so my brother decided he was guna work the night shift at honey farms. i was cool with it my parents were cool with it, others were not. they freaked out and acted like that honey farms gets robbed like every three seconds. like seriously guys, i go there on a daily basis, and i have never seen it get robbed. way to conjure up lies to make yourself feel better. haha i love to argue with people like this. summer's basically over and i still need to do my summer work, like seriously idk how imma finish this shit. im gunna have to go into super fast reading and thinking and typing mode!

AHHHHH!

schools just around the corner and im definately not looking forward to it. i haven't finished my summer reading assignments and i can't keep focused. not doing work for the past 3 years has come around to bite me in the butt! im not looking forward to waking up early and im especially not looking forward to band. i suck at playing the flute and i hate the people in my class. the good thing is i have every class with the people i love. this year is gunna be ape-shit!

awh mannn!

less than a month till school starts. sophomore year, im pummped. i have every class with kempskie!!! this year is gunna be the shiiit! i sick and tired of my neighborhood. too much crazy shit. yea, that lady that got murdered, and had her baby stolen, right down the street and around the corner from my house. I CAN'T WAIT TO GET OUT OF WORCESTER!

what a dicklickker

today went from amazing to shitty in a mater of minutes. i totally got bitched at for something that wasn't my fault, by someone who isn't even that close to me. yea dude, how about getting your fucking facts straight and getting off your man period for once. just because your too lazy to get a job and actually work doesn't you should be a complete asshole to everyone. and you ask why everyone hates you??? whats NOT to hate about you.

OSN

OSN!!! (oh shitt nigga)
today i saw a kid get hit by a car. scary shit yoo. i screamed madd loud. then i went to eat at an asian restaurant. who knew asians understood spanish music. then i went to wal-mart. and started dancing in the middle of the isle. i went to my cousins house and watched a whole bunch of hannah montana and suite life and wizards. who knew summer could be soo interestinggg.

haha, yo son

hong and mary totally shitted on your life. thats what you get for being stuck up and supposedly getting hundreds in everything. AHAHA, my summer is complete. i guess all that sabotage and studying didn't pay off. all i have to say is back down bitch your fuckingg done.

this summer has been amazingg. soo much fun chilling with the family, something i didn't expect to happen. im happy its getting warmer so i can actually tan. can't wait to go back to school so i can shit on everyones lives again.

i miss my brother.

my brother is off to amherst for a couple days. i miss him. no one to chill, and talk shit with with. no one to get into fist fights with. no one to argue with. no one to tell me what shows are on. his roomate seems chill. from long island new york! his dorm is wickkked nice. im kindah jealous i have 3 more years till i go to college.

You Call THIS Summer?!?! Well, FUCK Summer!

this summer is still stupid. the weather should be nicer. im wickked bored all the time since its always raining. stil haven't gotten any mosquito bites. i need to paint my nails, and start summer reading. FML.

WTF.

the weather has been extremely gayyyy! mother nature can go FUCKK herself like all the other bitches. im still gunna try to tan my ass off, and go to the beach as much as possible. im still gunna try to get into as much trouble as possible, and do crazy shit. its summer, and im gunna try to live it up. im gunna forget about all the stupid people whose lives lack attention soo much that they need to start shit. im gunna leave behind all the instigators that go out of their way to piss me off. im leaving all of the stupid stuff in the past, and lets just say once your out of my life, your out for good. don't bother trying to be pleasant, don't name drop and say we're best friends, don't tell people we are chill, and don't pretend that i like you, because i make it pretty obvious that my life would be a million times better without you. this summer is going to be the best one yett.

Haha.

Kim: im immune to mosquito bites
Pete: noo your not, they're scared they'll get aids from you!

i love my brother.

finals!

tomorrow finals start, wickkked pumpeddd, especially for the bio one. i present after that concieded biiiooootchhhh! im deff gunna show her up! shes socially retarded, and tries to annunciate her voice, but she ends up sounding obnoxious and stupid. someone needs to tell her shes not cute. she makes me even more excited for summmer! i don't have to see her camel face, hear her annoying voice, basically, she gunna fall off the face of the earth for about 3 months! thankkkk godd!

p.s. i hope she reads this!

BLAHHH!

i can't stand certain people who sit around and don't do shit. it pisses me off. i hate it how they expect other people to do shit for them and when we ask for help you call us annoying. im sorry that you don't care about your grades but some of us don't want to make a living off of scrubbing toilets at the local McDonald's, some of us don't wanna be living paycheck to paycheck wondering if well have enough money. we actually want to get good grades and go to college so we can be successful. my feelings don't get hurt, i get pissed. once you piss me off your dead to me. don't even bother trying to associate with me or even looking at me. i only give people one chance and once you fuck it up don't even bother. saying sorry to me is a waste of time. i don't let immature people like you phase me.

That Party Last Night Was Awfully Crazy!

My brother graduation party. It lasted for a good 15 hours. Started at 12 noon and ended at 3a.m. At first it semed like a total faillll, so I left to another party, and when I came back at like 830ishh there was a whole bunch of people drinking and partying it up. By 12 midnight everyone was drunk, one guy, i think it was my dad's cousin, fell down the stairss. The best prt was watching drunk people try to do magic tricks. It was ridiculous. This is probably what the rest of my summer will consist of. :]

Graddd!

going to my brothers graduation later. i need to do maddd homeworkkkk. this suckkks!

New hairrrr!

i cut my hairr. i like it alott. better than last time. i have straight bangs. it looks supper flyyyy.
so i heard the jeffree starr remix of boom boom pow. its amazing. makes me realize how much i use to like jeffree star's musiccc.

HAHAH

SPRING ROLLS = ASIAN BURRITOS
emily duong is wayyy funnyyyyy

New Hair?!?!!

im getting a haircut tomorrow. im wickked excited, but im scared it'll look shitty. i neeed to do some homework, i have a whole bunch of history to catch up on. i cant focus, i keep thinking school is over cause my brother has been done for like a weeek already.

where a kid can be a kid!

i went to chuck-e-cheese for victoria's birthday. it was awesome. i loved the rolercoaster stimulator. me and victoria were screaming on the thing. the boy that worked there kept staring at me, and i realized that i probs partied with him before. it bothered me that he kept staring but he wouldn't say hi. we looked ridiculous doing the train thing around the whole place. brenda's dad was awesome and took 495794957 pics of me! it was wickked fun hanging out with everyone. i realized that i wanna work there.

i probs failed english on the interm. my parents are gunna freaakkkk. he gave us soo much work to do in such a short time period. i can't wait to graduate. just 3 more years. for now im gunna try to stop slacking and get on topp!

im starting to think that i won't get what i want. i have extremely high expectations and i cannot get myself into the situations that i wanna be in. it bothers me how people act like everything is okay when when it's not. it bothers me how people try to act like things never happened, seriously just own up to it, so everyone can move on. i haven't blogged in long time, and i realized that it makes me feel better when i do. maybe if someone were to own up to their stuff, i wouldn't be bottling up my feelings.

i have come to realize how important exercise is. i've come to appreciate working out alot more. i feel great when i do so and i think i wanna gain some arm muscle. maybe i'll gain some during the summer. speaking of summer, i think my summer is finally saved. everyhing seems to be working out and the drama is cooling down. maybe i will be able to go to a whole buncha places with everyone, then again i won't get too excited cause things can be headed down another track in a split second.

lately, i've been liking that kate voegele stuff again. i used to love her, when she first came on one tree hill. then i stopped for a while and now im singing her music all the time. im also kinda feeling kanye's 808's & heartache, at first i thought it was dumb but now its pretty "amazingg".
i need some summer clothes, and i think my new thing is gunna be sundresses and t-shirts with leggings. last summer i was skinny jeans, but this year in thinking of dressing for the weather.
hopefully i start blogging more often.

OMGessshhh!

Wow, its been wickked long since I been here. Well yea, spirit week was great, freshmen totally won color wars. Lately I've been catching up on work, and im pretty much all caught up. I think everything is wayy easier when i'm not behind in school work. I wish that I didn,t procrastinate and leave things until last minute.


Everything has been going great, the drama is pretty much gone. Im soo excited for all the birthdays that ar coming up. Im absolutley excited for Victoria's party at chuck-e-cheese! I just watched a tivo-ed episode of one tree hill. Im loooking forward to next week.


So yea today I got a 274 on maps test, thanks to peter pham and his help on the 2 logrithm problems. I looking forward to running the mile tomorrow. Im wickked pumped!!!

COLOR WARSS!!!

wanna tee?
pay a couple dollars, price not decided yet.
get a tee made by Hong , Kimm, Mary, and Marta.
there gunnah be awesome.
front:
WE'RE soo [FRE$HH], mann!
back:
last name and 12

Don't Want No Short Dick Mann.

Aha, I have crazy ass neighbors. I open the window and all I hear is music, the lyrics "Don't want no short dick man." I love my neighborhood. I got my report card today, wasn't as bad as I had expected, only one B. I love it how Mr. Weeks gives me a C then I end up with an A. I did a great job shuning this girl today, Its soo amzing mann.

What A Beautiful Day.

Today was gorgeous, the sun was shining brightly, and I finally finished all my work. This vacation was totally needed after those long extended days. I'm dreading tomorrow, I think it's going to suck, and I'm putting money on it that I'm going to miss the bus. I cannnot wait until the day freshman year is over.


So, yea. While I was in the car with my aunt, going up to blackstone, we got pulled over. I don't take those things realy well. Cops scare me shitless. I was seriously on the verge of crying cause I was so scared. She ended up only getting a warning cause she didn't know about the "next lane law". The freaking cop was an asshole about it too, he was like "this law came out less than a month ago. You guys should know about it." Im sorry to inform you but if its a new law, especially, one that dumb, I don't really think people would know about it.

It's Suppose To Be Spring!

WTF?!? I drove by one of the signs things today and one of them said it's 96 degrees out. Today was wickked hott. It's a great break from all the nasty winter weather. We had a cook out and everything! This makes me so excited for summer, if it's this hot in spring, imagine what it'll be like in summer! All I'm thinking about right now is the beach and the cool ocean water. I think I'm way too excited for summer, maybe it's cause I've been really annoyed by people.


I need summer clothes! all I have is North Face sweaters and such. I'm in great need of a shopping spree. But, yea this morning at 5 in the morning I was woken up by a detective who came by. I didn't even know they worked those hours. Hopefully nothing happens and everything cools down.

Ugh.

Today suckks. I didn't get anything done, and by saying things are getting better yesterday, I actually made things worse. I want to finish this stupid essay so I can actually enjoy tomorrow and Sunday before I go back to school and have to deal with all the semi-annoying people again. Speaking of school I can't wait to go back and confront a certain someone that has been annoying me soo much lately. Honestly, shes been so mean and has been pulling so many malicious moves that I honestly cannot take it any longer. This makes me wonder how many people in my life are being a genuinely goood friend to me. The good thing that comes out of this situation is that I learned that I can't trust everyone, and not everyone is a good person. I've gotten advice from many people, and thank you guys for it cause it really helps. The two pieces of advice that I am taking very seriously is to remove that person completely out of my life, and try my best to show her up.

Eww. Copycat.

I hate biters. Especially ones that copy someone else and act like they started the whole thing. Like WTF, quit lying to yourself. It so annoying. It's even more annoying when the person is someone that you hate. Why can't people do their own shit, instead of trying to fit in. People like this deserve a punch in the face and a kick in the shin.

I finished the geometry project today. My picture sucks but its okay. I know it sucks cause my brother walked by and said"WTF is that?!?" I'm going to have to start the english essay and history work soon, if I want to go out this weekend, especially cause it's going to be in the 80's. I'm soo excited for that. Seems like my summer plans might work out again, at least I think so. Hopefully, everything works itself out and everything will go back to the way it was before.

Haha, I had an crazy conversation about zoo animals with my friend on aim today. I told her not to tell anyone about it, but knowing her she probably did. I am probably now thought to be a crack head. So what if I wanna buy a giraffe and ride around.

FML

Today was a retarded day. I got nothing done, except for choosing a picture to analyze for geometry. I still need to start that english essay and do some chapter work. I hate it how I can't concentrate at home. I also hate how people like to rub it in when they have completed something when they know that someone else hasn't started. It just makes me feel like im a complete failure. Come on, all you're doing is making yourself seem like a complete asshole.

At the moment I really want to be driving. I realized that I have a really late birthday, and I'll be one of the last people to drive. I want a big black range rover. :] Like this one:

I think I'd look cute driving a big car. Especially that one. Do I hear graduation gift coming? Haha, my only hope of getting this is if I buy it on my own.

Meet the Ancestors!

So today was Mary's birthday. Her sister threw a surprise party, and it was really fun. I learned how to play apples to apples [best game ever!], and I had a great time with Mary, Hong, Mel, Emily, Victor-i-a, and Lexi. HAHA, Hong did the most amazing thing on accident, I love youu and your forgetfulness. I learned that when Mel says things they never come out right. HAHA "Can you read that?" "Is she... Bi-curious?!?" I had a great time at Hong's right before the party, I got to meet her ancestors!


I absolutely am promising to to some work tomorrow, cause so far I've been soo unproductive. All the projects and stuff like that just makes my vacation worse. I can't even call it vacation. It's more like stay at home and do work. I probably won't do anything till last minute cause i always wake up at 11 then watch hours of useless television. Eww. This makes me look forward to the day i graduate. No more School work, no more useless projects, and absolutely no more annoying teachers.


I need to get a life. Currently, my life consists of talking to Sydney and a couple others, on aim, Talking to people on Myspace, and learning how to use facebook. And since I told Sydney to read this, I love youu hun<3>

Green Nail polishh.

Welcommeeee to my life.

Lately I've been really pissed at a certain someone cause it seems like they have been trying to sabotage me. I think its really stupid and dumb how certain people can go out of their way to try to bring others down, like seriously dude, get a life. Just because your not at the top anymore doesn't mean that you get to be a complete asshole to everyone. I'm sick and tired of the dirty looks and the rude comments. I've decided that I don't need people like you in my life cause all you do is envy others' success. I have never heard the words congratulations come out of your mouth. I've also decided to try my best and screw you over like the way you tried to screw me over. Thanks to you I now know who my true friends are.

YAY! I got lime green nail polish. It reminds me of summer. Which I'm way too excited for. But at the moment all my plans are ruined. Hopefully everything works out the way I want it to, so I can have another great summer.

Thank god Vacation is here! I was ready to kill certain people. The extended days got to me, I'm glad they are over. I was expecting to get so much more work than we actually did. For the first time in a really long time, I got 12 hours of sleep!

My brother is getting an SUV. My parents decided to let him get one, and they're paying for it. Blah, he's so lucky. Hopefully I'll get a big car as my first car too. Just the thought of being able to drive gets me super excited. I think its so cool when small people drive huge cars. I want a big black car, with nice rims, but none of that pimped out stuff. That's just tacky.

Sorry that this is so long.